Nurtured by angels and barked at by the hounds of hell – two roads from which to choose but with such different views. For years they will prowl pacing the deepest corners of my mind, tainting the walls with something so hard to hide behind. The blueprints of yesterday form a plan for tomorrow; I'll never say its perfect but its all I’ve grown to know. So beautiful, yet so obscure. I never thought but then i saw, left with visions that made me think. For all our woes, faults and moans it could always be worse – it could always be so much worse.
Can you bring yourself to see the guilt that's hidden in your shame? Can you take the good in me and erase it from your name? You cannot say you loved unless that love is one day shown and I can’t promise the mess you made will not swallow you whole. Brave smiles carried me through a life that could have easily perished in waves of tears. I opened doors to my demons to prevent my phobias becoming my worst fears. I’ll prosper in the midst of everything that we’ve been put through, you’ll cower in the shade of what you’re too scared to face up to.
You’ll backstab everyone that ever tried to hold you up – the blame passed on to anyone; your ignorance, your crutch. I can only be the best man I can try to be; you tried so hard but couldn’t bring out the worst in me. My head stable and my heart content, even with this dismal sight of life – a sight of life I’d rather forget.